How can I sleep

It was less than 24 hours since he sent me and mom to KB; and he has just reached home after an 8-hours journey.

Apr.12 2010
(07:58 a.m.): Ayah kena stroke. Sebelah kanan tak boleh gerak.
(08:41 a.m.): Tak dpt. Tu no. fax.
(08:47 a.m.): Dah call Sg Buloh. Nanti dia hantar ambulan.
(10:33 a.m.): Dah sampai Hospital Sg Buloh
(10:46 a.m.): Mak dgn Kak Melah. Ayah still mcm tu. Sebelah kanan dan suara tiada. Doktor   tengah check
(12:02 p.m.): OK. Everything under control
(01:10 p.m.): OK. Sekarang belum ada apa-apa lagi. Doktor belum panggil.

 Blood clot di kepala sebesar penumbuk. Operation chances: 20/80

(05:10 p.m.): Tengah tunggu ada katil kosong. Tak operate.
(07:32 p.m.): Dah dapat katil. Tak boleh tunggu - critical.
(08:03 p.m.): Kat Neurosurgery. Abg on the way balik. Esok mak pegi jenguk.
(10:57 p.m.): Rasa tak best

Apr.12 2010
(05:56 p.m.): Boleh. Naik apa?
(06:11 p.m.): Jumaat pagi? Turun Klang before 7 a.m.
(10:20 p.m.): Tak best terkenang ayah sorang-sorang kat ward. Tak tahu dia masih ingat kat kitaorang @ tak
(11:31 p.m.): Kat hospital sekarang. Diaorang panggil datang.

Difficulty breathing - on oxygen. Decided no breathing tube insertion - unbearable. 

(12:12 a.m.): Mata tutup, ada gerak-gerak sikit. Semua kat bawah - tak boleh tunggu atas. 

I can't sleep.  I can't help it anymore. This is the time to be at a place where I should be. Mom has just slept. Early flight tomorrow morning insyaAllah. And my credit card is not working (again!!!!!).
  

Idle





I have no single entry in March 2010 - despite it supposed to be the most 'free' time I have had in like 20 years.

Alhamdulillah



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