Grateful Day 4

 I did my 10-fingers grateful exercise ' manually yesterday and missed the earlier day. 

Tonight I determine to write down here again:

I am GRATEFUL for:

1. Corrected my SMJ paper for countless time and sent by corresponding author - hope for the last time.

2. Being offline for almost 4 hours as my charger was left home and hp was running out battery. 

3. Going shop for charger and happened to catch so many things together cost me another few hundreds.

4. Enjoying the stuff I shopped. 

5. Having a good catch up with colleague at office.

6. Eating her roti canai.

7. Having supervision and letting them know my feelings towards their actions/non action and again my expectations. 

8. Working very late for submission one very short paper I promised since few weeks and managed to do it in 1 hour. Alhamdulillah. Good start though insignificant indexing. 

9.  Husband treated us dinner.

10. Cuddling my boy. 

Mindfulness for Life Day 4. 

So many missed homework. 

So tired to think negative. 

Going on, moving on. 

Grateful Day 2

 There goes the second bits of my GRATITUDE list today 17.09.2020 (Thursday):

My first bunch of lady soldiers: Nadia, Ti Whan, Angela, Diana, Liyana, Audrey, and Joey 

The girls cheer leading  my talk on Mental Health Day October 2019. It was a paid event and they spent their money to listen to me - grateful. Ti Whan, Liyana, Diana and Audrey

I brought these girls to an Open Day event - a big one to do IQ assessment (what else) where public came in and received free testing and counseling from the eager new trainees. It was on weekend thus my two kiddos joined me (and ate our meals) and the baby was with his father - sleeping in the car. 

Again an open day - this one outside USM at KB Malla where the trainees were working for two days with Department of Neuroscience public event.

The stressed trying to smile anyway for a pose trainees in their first ever Practicum Seminar. The technical and connection problem with UPSI were real headache then. 

This is today 17.09.2020. They were 'forced' to do a small assignment despite leaving the office for good soon - sorry even Dr Faiz feels the pressure. 

Hanna A., Ti Whan, Joey, Hanna M., Nadia, Asmirah, Angela, myself and Dr Faiz at trainee's room. 

Graduating Cohort 1 - we made it Alhamdulillah 

6. Graduating and sending off my trainees to real life with a brief makan-makan together plus a small notebook to write down some memories we have shared together.

7. Graduating a postgraduate student in MSc Science (Psychology) from UPSI as an external examiner who completing her qualitative research with minor correction.

8. Seeing a young girl at USAINS clinic for feeling I am not worth for abundant of love I am receiving except I perform excellently well academically. 

9. Received a specially designed signature  bag 'ao' with a blue fluppy whale from my trainees Practicum 2.

10. Got a cute mug with golden spoon from Diana - soon to be taken January 2, 2021. 

What a full day of LOVE. Ya, I have not yet reading my notes. It will definitely be the next list to be grateful of. 

g.r.a.t.e.f.u.l.

Being mindful of my own being - A journey

Alhamdulillah 

I am here again - today. 

Welcome myself - to my personal room. I hope those happen to come and see me here would do good to me. 

Completed my first session of Mindfulness for Life successfully from Oxford Mindfulness Centre UK under the guidance of Susan McPherson. Ya I am always in love with UK trainers. 

The 2 and a half hours Zoom session started at 1.00 am in the morning - and alhamdulillah I managed to do my Tahajud but not part of Juzu' 6 that I missed for two days in a row.  

I notice I am a different person today. I am a different learner. 

I am grounded. I am calm, confident, and sure. It is me I am concern most and not what other people would see or say about me. 

I am aware of my running thoughts - and I am saying goodbye to them occasionally. 

I have a small expectation - and willing to be open and accepting. 

I treasure the time and opportunity that Allah gives me. 

InsyaAllah this is for the benefit of me to be a better servant of Allah, wife, mother, daughter, teacher, friend, sister, auntie, and anything that I could be. 

For this week, daily I would have 3 homework to do - that I secretly commit to an exchange of Robotic vacuum (I know... what a trade..) 

I would do the first one of 10 things I am grateful of today - Thursday 17.9.2020

Alhamdulillah I am grateful  for: 

1. Looking forward for a small farewell makan-makan with my trainees - they are first born graduate in Master of Psychology (Clinical) USM UPSI - I have planned a farewell activity that I love 

2. Managed to convince Ilham to go to school despite she failed to complete her homework - with lesser drama. 

3. Got an 'OK/ Ha ah' responses from a teacher who has never seen to smile to, welcome, speak to, look upon, us the parents when we sent our children in, following my statement 'Izzat is soiling' - to which made me responded as 'Sorry ya'. This is an achievement. 

4. Getting a 'revelation' to start writing here, again. 

5. Listening to the sound of an air conditioner in my office and thinking what a blessed life I have so far, and I am thankful. 

I will need to continue later as I have to start my work now. I will put unrelated image here, to simply beautify my entry. 

The above is my second born - Cohort 2 of Master in Psychology (Clinical) USM-UPSI. They are going to enter year 2 by October 2020. A proud mom I am.